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I'm scared... Am I making changes too late? ***updated***

I went to the doctor and got a physical. My exam was pretty darned good!
My doctor was happy with the weight loss and my bloodwork came back pretty awesome, too! My A1C came down from 7.9 to 6.3 and my LDL cholesterol came down from 99 to 70!

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I've been thinking about weight loss surgery for the last 20 odd years, but none of my insurance carriers would cover it.

The insurance I have with my current position allows weight loss surgery, but now I don't want it because I'm doing so well on my own!

I look at the side effects, and I would basically have to change my diet to the one I'm on... Soooo, what's the point in spending $5000 dollars on surgery when I can save that $5000 and get new clothes and possibly get some skin removed (tummy tuck and breast lift!)???

I'm glad that I never got the surgery, because I've seen so many people do it and then gain the weight back because they don't change their eating habits. I watched my mom go through dumping syndrome, have malabsorption issues, hair loss, have to go back on insulin, and a host of other challenges that I truly believe could have been avoided it she had been able to stick with a healthier diet.

I know that its hard for the first few weeks, but its so worth getting the processed foods out of your system and committing to eating healthy. I don't want anesthesia or medications or to be cut for no reason. (I will probably never have a tummy tuck or a breast lift, its just fun to think about).

I am hopeful that I can avoid some of the health issues that are currently hitting my extended family members. I'm also holding out a modicum of hope that my mother will start eating better, because she is shortening her life with her food choices.

I am scared to death of ending up in poor health like her. She's got diabetic peripheral neuropathy, diabetic intestinal enteropathy, horrible arthritis (had it since she was a teenager), cataracts, vitreous gel separation in her eyes, CHF, heart disease, malabsorption issues, and others. I want to be able to take care of myself and my dogs for a long time to come. I don't want to have to take thousands of dollars of medicines a month and worry that I won't have enough to get through to the next prescription.

My cousin just passed from a massive heart attack. She was 56.

My uncle Bud died from a heart attack at 85.

My uncle Danny just got stints put in because he had a heart attack this week. He's 74.

My mom see's a cardio-pulmonary specialist.

My auntie Ethel sees a cardio-pulmonary specialist.

I don't want to end up like them. I want to live and love and see my grandchildren grow up to become fine men and have babies of their own. And I want to watch THOSE kids grow up!

I'm hoping this isn't too little too late, and I'm hoping that at least some of the damage I've done can be undone.

I've ordered some CBD oil in the hopes of maybe getting off of the Ritalin and Sertraline so that I can be completely drug free.

Time will tell.

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